Back at Margaret's wedding Swore you'd marry me if I'd just buy the ring Now you say it's too hard to explain I wonder what changed You came with canned lines from your therapist Sterilized like a doctor's office The darkness comes in waves But sometimes it won't wash away And I fear I'm permanently stained By the love I gave Did all that time mean anything If all that's still around is pain? My heart rides a carousel When it stops, God I can't tell If it comes around and you start to see What you used to see And you think of me You know where I'll be When I still made you laugh You were winter sun splitting the ice in half Now I barely get a smile to crack I hope you get that back Love's a strong torch but it needs your light If you don't feel the heat, you're not doing it right My heart rides a carousel When it stops, God I can't tell If it comes around and you start to see What you used to see And you think of me I clutched the roses 'til they drew blood Guarded the match 'til I burned my thumb I'm stuck here cycling the same three thoughts But I know I'm not lost I'm right here where you left me If I was clinging to a phantom limb The thought of warmth was too much, I gave in If I waited too long to greet my fate I was waiting for the crowd to look away I'm stuck spinning round Until I feel it slowing down My heart rides a carousel When it stops, God I can't tell If it comes around and you start to see What you used to see And you think of me I clutched the roses 'til they turned black I chased you so long, I got no way back Every breath is a heart attack But my love will grow back Until then I'll be right here where you left me Right here where you left me Right here where you left me Right here where you left me